yesterday i had a weird dream, again. it's not my 1st time having a dream about somebody. who actually not just anybody but someone who i once had a crush on during my final year at MMU. i can't remember what my dream was about, coz it has a mixture of this and that, so i dunno what the main point is??!! huhu. teruk la mimpi camni. altho i termimpi somebody yg best, but then i end up waking up feeling bad. :( in reality, we rarely talk, neither using YM nor facebook... ape lg thru SMS or Phone Call. i once had his number (during my 'crush' yr...) but i deleted it for no reason. (gulp!) maybe i'm being emotionally with no reason kot :(

i once started admire him from far. then slowly2 i stalk him from far jugak. tp bkn stalk jenis x hengat yer, cume kalau nampak kelibat dier, musti curik2 pandang, sampai ade mase nak dkt terkantoi (gulp!). dulu mase dier x glamer lg kat MMU org mcm x bape kesah pun psl dier. tp mase tu la i start tgk dier. with his afro hair time tu, baju kuning feveret, and ade few shirts lg feveret dier, yg every week pun pakai set baju yg same... hahahahhaha... omg, i am a stalker!! (arghhhhhhh!!) pastu ade few of my frens yg tau siap tlg kem2 slm lg. kununnye dr secret admire. then he always wondering who... (biasela time tu agaknye xde org admire dier lg sbb blum popular lg. huhu) then slow2 i add his id, cume x bape pandai nak mulekan conversation, coz i suck at it. (gulp!)

i don't actually 'officially' know him. kire mcm tade sape introduce ke or ape2 ke. the 'friendship' dtg sendiri... and summore dier terlibat dlm CF mase tu... dats y i love hanging out kat stalls CF time tu sbb nak have a glimpse of him. dr jauh pun xpe la. and i still remember 1st time dier tertego mase i wat henna with my fren kat CF tu, dier tibe2 kate i mcm "sabariah" which i know ade bdk lain name sabariah komiti CF kot. so dr situ laaa kalo terserempak kat jln ke hape, dier mesti call me sabariah! grrrr... tp best gak, at least he recognize me! :P

i had no regret, walaupun xde official intro between us, then for him not knowing my real name, and there's actually no further relationship between us, which i pun x mengharap akan ada, even for my other crush sblom2 ni pun, it never go far than dat... :) i dunno y, maybe dats y it's being call a crush. and a crush, will stays a crush :D what matter is, i already had the opportunity to talk to him and also extend my friends network :D

i just want to take this opportunity to congratulate HIM and the rest of his FRIENDS, who always stood by him, a happy GRADUATION'S DAY. i heard dier dah keje skrg, and CONGRATS for dat too! i'm proud of u, bro! nothing that can makes me happy, rather than see u happy! :D


p/s: sayu plak bace post sendiri diiringi lagu rossa - ayat-ayat cinta. *sobs* god, pls don't let me dream of him again... till further notice :|



love+peace