yesterday, i decided to have my hair cut. so i went to Alamanda with my mom & dad. but sh*t happened and i have to cancel my whole plan. my mood totally spoiled for the whole day because of dat one 'thing'. all i can say is that, it's not a really good idea to have a haircut when your parents tag along.

back from Alamanda, i kept thinking of what happened. and i realised that i don't have any close friend. meaning of close friend: friends who i can share my laughter or sadness together, share the same interest, doing some interesting activities together -- manicure/pedicure, rock climbing, futsal, etc., have someone who can 'teman' me for a haircut, lepak mamak ptg2, pegi bayar bil and other stuffs. meaning, doing things yg u don't need ur parents to tag along u! mcm dlm cite tv, gol & gincu, kami... i saw them very independent! bebas tp ade batasan. but i don't think my life is like them. i'm more like living under other people's direction. suruh buat ni, buat. suruh belok kiri, belok kiri. that's y sampai skrg i feel like i'm not a good driver because i can't make my own decision. and other people usually questioned about my decision. parking sini, salah. belok situ salah... u know. i don't have a chance to decide!

well, i think my life becoming like this because of myself. i don't want to blame anyone else because of my own fault. i'm not being vocal enough to voice out what i like, what i want and what i feel. there are so many things that happened in my life, which based on other people's decision. and i don't know whether i'm regretting it all now bcoz i know it's too late to regret. all i can do is to go with the flow. i might took finance as my degree, but i still have side interest and passion towards writing, drawing, photography, modelling (haha :P), singing and dancing. who knows, i might become or join any of the industry professionally in the future? if i join AF or OIAM, do vote for me k! ;)


love+peace